Birthday

I thought I would be farther along by now. I am going to be 37 in a few days. I wanted to have a party but I am sick. Someone I know asked why don't I have a bunch of my friends help me with the party because I don't feel good...This has been one of the hardest years of my life, and one thing I have realized is that friends are one thing I am lacking. I miss having someone that I can count on. I wish sometimes that I had a sister or brother. I know it does not always mean that you have someone to count on but I would like to think that that would be the case if I did. I don't mean to have a pity party but it just sucks. I can't even get my boyfriend to hug me anymore. It has been a really hard year...

#1

This is my Lake. I have a dream to live on it some day. Its waters are healing to me. I have been going to this lake before I was even born. When you are there it is like you can touch the mountain.